One more out the way

On Thursday evening got a call to go into hospital this Saturday. Which did not give me much time to get things organized or time to worry. Had to be there 7.30 am, I usually sit about for hours at the hospital but for a change I was first on the list. My shoulder had to be manually maniupulated under anisethia which wasnt too bad, but when I woke up the pain was immense. It was like having your arm broken as all the cartiledge had gone solid and had to be broken. I had 500mg of morphine, 100mg of tramadol and 100mg of something else and I was still in pain. After this amount of painkillers I was refused anymore, so just had to wait for the pain to calm down. Which took a very long time. Then just as it was settling down the Physio nurse came round and told me that I had to try and move my arm above my head, which I was unable to do. So with a little help she pushed the arm up and I was back where I started with the pain. Unfortunately this has to be maintained otherwise the shoulder will seize up again. So on Sunday Bryn and I spent most the day trying to push the arm up but already it has started to freeze again. I start aggressive Physiotherapy on Wednesday the first day I could get, should have been today but hey ho thats the NHS for you. I am going round trying to swing my arm about and tried doing some ironing with my right arm, which was fun as I have just got used to using my left arm for everything. I will be on strong painkillers for the rest of the week which space me out and bring up a lovely red rash on my face, so not ready to face the public just yet.
My aim is to get my arm moving for March 7th the first Rock and Roll dance of the year. With Bryn still going to jiving classes we should hopefully be able to dance together for the first time in 18months.
Will keep you informed of my progress and I will let you know how I get on on Wednesday.
LOL
Cindy

p.s. This is Dolly and Louise. You can also see how Oscar is nearly as tall as me.

Happy New Year

Cant belive its been nearly a month since my last update. Well I made it to another Christmas and what a brilliant one we had. We hired a converted school house in North Devon and my family came from Phoenix to join us. It was set in wonderful country side, five mins from the coast and 52 paces to the pub. On Christmas eve the tractor turned up towing a man with his organ and we had a good singalong, the mulled wine and mince pies made us sing even louder. We also went to the Panto in Barnstaple and what a good time we all had with all the Booing, hissing and general clapping along. The week went extremely quick and no sooner had we put the tree up we had to take it down again.
Then New Year arrived and we had a good old knees up! Its the best party I've been to in ages, I danced and sang the night away and for the first time in a year made it to 2.30am. Slightly a better time that last year when I had my first chemo. If all goes well and I remain fit, the party is on for next year or should I say this year.
Had some awful news, where Oscar goes for his support, his little friend James lost his Dad on Sunday to Cancer. Please say a pray for Richard he was a lovely, gentle man and had been battling cancer for awhile. I know the fear that Richard felt when leaving a son and feel so dreadfully sorry. I also met a friend yesterday who had rung me with support through the year and unfortunately her breast cancer has returned after 5 years and she has had to start treatment again. I had started the new year so upbeat and then Cancer comes back and hits you in the face.
However I did go and see Australia the other night and in the credits at the begining the saying 'A life lived in fear is a half lived life' and I think that this must be my new motto or New years resolution.
I am still in a lot of pain with my shoulder and as usual am still awaiting an emergency appointment for my manipulation. I would like to have started the year pain free but hopefully next year I will do. I find copius amounts of alcohol works (thank goodness I found that I could drink white wine, never got the taste buds back for red).
Glad to see the back of 2008 and bring on 2009!
Happy New year to all my readers!
LOL
Cindy

Time goes by

Where does the time go, I've been meaning to up date this for a while, but just havent managed to get round with it.
Its because I am back at work and still having lots of hospital appointments. Four alone this week.
Anyway we will start of with good news, my bone scan came back clear, for the time being and the liver is within parameters (whatever that means) so this means I'm not on my way out just yet.
However the Doctors have confirmed a Frozen Shoulder and I had to have a steriod injection into the joint and saying that it hurt was an understatement. I would not have minded but it did not work. So I am now on the emergency waiting list for another op. Should be within the next six weeks. Oh joy!
I would have liked to have started the New year off out of pain and a bit more positive, but it doesnt look like its going to happen. Maybe next year!
My new boobs should be winging there way to me, and should be with me in time for Crimbo! I was thinking of buying a pair of Kenny Everett ones (those of you old enough to remember) but I wont need to now.
All our plans are going well for Ilfracombe, and we are all looking forward to it. After last years attempt to get away we hope this one goes a little more smoothly. I suppose the car could break down.
Oh forgot, went to see the Heart Doctor and my heart is working fine, I still have to keep taking the tablets (not sure why) but at least its better. ~Wonder if that means I will have to start up exercising now!
We also hope to get a dog in the new year, but I have been looking on websites and at the moment all you can get is Rottweilers or Pit Bulls, not really friendly dogs and especially when you have a son whose afraid of a Yorkie.
I will try to write before Crimbo
But if I dont I Wish all my readers a very merry Christmas!
Lots of Love
Cindy

All I want for Christmas!

Well you've heard of two front teeth, all I want are two front boobs! and tomorrow is the big day. Jordan still wont have much to worry about I'm only going to a C cup. These aren't permanent they are just plastic ones you put in your bra and hopefully wont move.
At the moment however I still wont be able to wear them as my arm is still not working. I am receiving Bowen Treatment, not sure what it actually is but I have had my stops put in.
I don't think my arm will be fixed by Christmas so unfortunately I will have to drink lots and lots of alcohol to stop the pain.
I have had my bone scan and as usual am still awaiting the results, hopefully the cancer won't have spread to my bones. I was injected with some sort of radiation then I had to go back 3 hours later for the scan. Keep those fingers crossed that it is all clear.
As soon as I know I will up date the blog, but trying to get an appointment with the Consultant is proving near impossible.
Thats all folks!
LOL
Cindy

Frozen Shoulder

Sorry for not updating but I am suffering now with a frozen shoulder and the pain! So back on the morphine (any excuse!) no the pain is so bad that actually this is'nt actually working. I am going to the Doctors this PM to see what maximum dose I can take, I dont want to overdose just yet.
I saw the breast surgeon on Monday and he has refered me for a bone scan to rule out cancer of the bones and if all clear will then refer me on to an orthopaedic surgeon. At the moment I would not mind the arm off as I am learning to do everything with me left hand.
I have gone back to work, I really should not be driving or left in charge of a computer mouse but life moves on. I'm trying to control the mouse with my left hand and the little arrow has a mind of its own, so I am all over the place.
As in the words of Gary Glitter 'its good to be back'. I came home the other day thinking about spreadsheets which was brilliant.
As I can not have any treatment on the arm because of the removal of the lymph nodes I am having some alternative treatment this PM as well, not sure what this will involve but hopefully it will work.
Not sure about the picture Bryn has posted on the site, but at least you get to see Louise. Now only Betty, Dolly, Raquel and Bo to go. However, not wearing the wigs at home as I now have quite a good covering of hair.
Also going for a Echogram on Monday to see if my heart is still working. So I am still spending a lot of time at the hospital. Hopefully in the new year this will decrease and things may get back to some sort of order.
Will write soon
LOL
Cindy

Pictures

Blimey, I've just read Cindy's last couple of posts and she was depressed! Glad to say she has picked up a bit now. Just wanted to put this photo on that she has been nagging me about for a while. I took it when we went to Littlehampton during the "summer".

Glad to read that there will be no more housework & DIY - cancer does have its plus points!

Bryn